Bah Humbug!!!

Why am I celebrating Christmas. This time for the first time in ::gasp:: 31 years, I did not put up a Christmas tree. I think the getting fired right before Thanksgiving did it to me. Typically I am all Christmased out, stockings, inflatable snowman in the yard, wreath on the door. Christmas shopping is done, and Christmas music is blaring. I just finished Christmas shopping today. I am not really in the mood. The only thing I am really excited about for Christmas is the fact I got a new computer.

I am trying to figure out why I am not excited about Christmas this year. Could it be because my grandmother died a couple of weeks back? Or that I lost my job right before Thanksgiving and felt I ruined us financially for Christmas. Maybe I am overwhelmed by feeling I have to have a super duper christmas extravaganza every year with the perfect tree, perfect gifts, and end up spending way too much. It could be because we are supposed to be celebrating the birth of Christ, even though Christ wasn't born December 25th, but rather in the spring, and that Christmas was originally a pagan holiday, or maybe it is because my husband is an atheist, and I am agnostic (still holding onto hope in case there is a hell).

All I know is that I am already thinking New Years resolutions, and I plan to post them and stick to them very soon!!!!