As you guys are all probably aware, George Sodini opened fire at a gym killing three, injuring others, and killing himself. You probably are all aware that Sodini had a blog that basically outlined his intentions.
He was a 48 year old white man upset that women had rejected him. In his own words:
Moving into Christmas again. No girlfriend since 1984, last Christmas with Pam was in 1983. Who knows why. I am not ugly or too weird. No sex since July 1990 either (I was 29). No shit! Over eighteen years ago. And did it maybe only 50-75 times in my life. Getting to think that a woman now would just, uh, get in the way of things. Isolated. I have extra money and enjoy traveling, too, wtih my 25-30 days of vacation. LA was the best! But going alone is not too fun.
“I actually look good. I dress good, am clean-shaven, bathe, touch of cologne — yet 30 million women rejected me — over an 18 or 25-year period. That is how I see it. Thirty million is my rough guesstimate of how many desirable single women there are."
He seems upset at the world and felt that he wasn't complete without a woman, even though the man apparently had a very nice job as a systems analyst at a law firm, not a job considered menial or low wage I wouldn't think. He seemed successful in most areas of life, and typically for men, the belief of being single and successful is a positive, not a negative, there isn't a push for men to get married like there is for women, or is there? He even brags about having extra money and being able to travel, and that women get in the way.
“A man needs a woman for confidence. He gets a boost on the job, career, with other men, and everywhere else when he knows inside he has someone to spend the night with and who is also a friend.”
Was a woman going to really do this for him? By his own accounts he had survived lay offs at his job and received a raise even in "this shitty Obama economy", so where does this anger come from?
It seems he blamed his lack of a women, not just on women themselves, but on black men and Obama winning the election:
Planned to do this in the summer but figure to stick around to see the election outcome. This particular one got so much attention and I was just curious. Not like I give a flying fcuk who won, since this exit plan was already planned. Good luck to Obama! He will be successful. The liberal media LOVES him. Amerika has chosen The Black Man. Good! In light of this I got ideas outside of Obama's plans for the economy and such. Here it is: Every black man should get a young white girl hoe to hone up on. Kinda a reverse indentured servitude thing. Long ago, many a older white male landowner had a young Negro wench girl for his desires. Bout' time tables are turned on that shit. Besides, dem young white hoez dig da bruthrs! LOL. More so than they dig the white dudes! Every daddy know when he sends his little girl to college, she be bangin a bruthr real good. I saw it. "Not my little girl", daddy says! (Yeah right!!) Black dudes have thier choice of best white hoez. You do the math, there are enough young white so all the brothers can each have one for 3 or 6 months or so.
Did Sodini think this was going to happen? That all the white women would run to black men and that all the black men would happily take them? Did he think the white women weren't taking him and instead choosing black men over him? Is Obama getting elected the cause for these white women wanting black men?
His entries tend to indicate that he was looking for an ideal woman. He appeared to be into younger women, and he wanted someone "attractive". He also had unresolved issues with his family, and was a recovering alcoholic, except that it appears in the last month, he had been drinking again.
I just looked out my front window and saw a beautiful college-age girl leave Bob Fox's house, across the street. I guess he got a good lay today. College girls are hoez. I masturbate. Frequently. He is about 45 years old. She was a long haired, hot little hottie with a beautiful bod. I masturbate. Frequently. Some were simply meant to walk a lonely path in life. I don't usually look out, but just happened to notice. Holy fuck. I have masturbated since age 13. Thanks, mum and brother (by blood alone). And dad, old man, for TOTALLY ignoring me through the years. All of you DEEPLY helped me be this way.
I wish I can go back to 1975 and fix things. Awe, that wont work, big BULLY BROTHER would assert his bull shit. He was twice my size. He never messed with guys bigger than 5'10, or so. He is a PUSSY at heart. Remember, Michael is my brother (we have common parents, that's all) is still a BOSS. Repetition only for emphasis: HE IS ONLY A BULLY, even at 50ish! Never forget that! Because he exudes confidence. People believe bull shit if delivered WITH CONFIDENCE. Get it??
On the same thought, things occured to me today. Michael NEVER had an attractive girlfriend. Debbie, Barb, Kim, ... then I lost track. Not to say I had any (execpt Pam, who was about a 7.25). He married a Chinese-descent, petite woman with no body, no ass, no chest and no personality. She never laughs or smiles, neither does he. But she is highly intelligent and an excellent cook. I can testify to that! She home bakes her own DELICIOUS wheat bread! But who cares about that type of small bull crap? Mike even mentioned when we were visiting dad that "she's not very attractive".
I don't know where I am going with this. I am getting tired, feels good to write and get it all out.
On still another thought, I had 20+ years of sobriety and achieved nothing about friendships, girlfriends, guys, etc. Zilch. What a waste.
In post racial America it seems that some people feel that whites are discriminated against and suffer at the expense of women and minorities. Did Sodini fit the profile of a person like this? Is he the extreme example of what some white people are feeling here in America? Is there such thing as the "White Man's Burden?" It seems that with the historic election of Barack Obama, there appears to be a vocal group of people upset, feeling their rights have been taken from them. Pat Buchanan comes to mind. Is the country going to be more racially divided, or is this the growing pains of being united?
Sodini tended to blame his perceived shortcomings in life on his family, women, and to an extent black men. Did he suffer at the hands of black men or women in general? Did Sodini have what is referred to as the "White Man's Burden?"